JunXian

Random Thoughts.

2011-01-04T10:53:00.000-08:00

I have been lying on the bed trying to sleep for the past 4 hours but still I can't get myself to fall asleep. I've been doing a lot of thinking lately, especially during midnight.Actually I'm writing this out to share with the people who really know me well.So for those who dont really know me well or do not know me at all, I prefer you not to read what I'm going to write. And for those who know me, I rather you not mention anything about this to me either. So, It's 2011 before i realize it. It had been a great year, i managed to survive my first year and I enjoyed myself throughout the year, playing and studying. I've met a bunch of new people i can have fun with as well. To me, it's really easy to find someone to hang out with and have fun, as long as i feel comfortable talking or joking with them. But, it's really hard to find someone that i can actually trust. I have very serious trust issue. To be honest, out of so many people, I've only met 5 of them, from different ''stages'' of my life. They are the ones who I talk to whenever about whatever I want to. Most importantly, they know how to keep secrets well and will always be ready to lend me their ears whenever i feel bad. Even though some of them are occupied with work or their other half, they will always take their time to keep in touch with me and everything about my current life. And obviously they are the ones who will sacrifice their time whenever i need them to be there for me no matter how busy they are. And yeah, these are the people, whom you wish to have them in your life for the rest of your life. 3 of them are currently studying in other countries and another one is leaving soon. I always know that they have their own dream and future and I'm really happy for them. It just never occurred to me that all of them will leave one by one, eventually. I feel bad whenever i start to think about that. I will definitely miss hanging out with each and everyone of them. And we won't be able to be actually there, literally, for each other. And obviously we will eventually be busy with our own life so that means we wont be able to keep in touch with each other as often as we did. I know i didnt do my best to keep in touch with them last year as i was busy studying (too scared of failing). Now I regret for not being able to hang out with them much because of that. I just wish that the friendship between us will last. I dont have to name names as they already know who they are. They are the ones that i treasure the most besides my family.
Quite a few people are questioning me why am i still single after so long. Lol. And to some of my friends, being single means that you are gay. I'm really not desperate in finding one at the moment, as i still cant really find the right one for myself. I seriously trust that when the time is right, that person will come. I've had tried to rush into this kind of stuff once a few years back, it didnt work out and it hurt so badly. So stop pressuring me my fellow friends and (coughs) sisters.
I have class in 4 hours so i better get back to sleep now:)

Life In IMU.

2010-11-19T10:18:00.000-08:00

Somehow I still can't believe it's true.

It's too good to be true.

Time really flies. It's the end of the year already.

Thinking back to what I've been through this year,

I have to admit that it's the best year I've had so far.

When I first got into IMU, I always thought studying in such a small campus without any big shopping malls around will be really boring, but I didnt expect that this place will change my life.

The people I met here are really nice, well at least the people I hang out with are.

There are a few people I would like to show my appreciation, but I'm not sure how.

So I guess I'll just write a few things about them here. LOL.

Joshua Ting.

A lot of people say his appearance made him one of the most popular person in campus, but I think it's his personality which helped him made a lot of friends here. Well, he's a really easy going type of person who can hang out and communicate with any kind of people. Although he has bipolar disorder especially when playing games and we argue a lot, he's a generally a really nice friend to have in your life. He knows how to keep secrets, and he knows my limit of tolerance especially in joking. He's also the kind of person who will listen to you whenever you need somebody to talk to. He loves basketball, dance and of course gaming, the things which I'm not really interested in though. Lol.

Jit Tong.

My other housemate. The first impression of him is that he always study in library in Sem 1. I got to really know him when he moved in with me to a new apartment. He's a really responsible kind of person, the type of person who will always keep his promise and get things done. Have to thank him for fetching me here and there to study throughout Sem 2. Some people say he has a serious mature kind of look, but when you get to know him, he can be a real joker. He's also the caring type of person who will think of the others, for example he will pack bubble tea for everyone when he drives pass the bubble tea shop accidentally.

Matthew Cho.

He's the only indian friend in the gang. Got to know him when he came to my old unit to play dota. He's a real joker. Always know how to joke around all the time. I still remember him being called the hamsap face in Sem1, until he's ''attached'' now. And apparently he has a lot of connection with all the races somehow. So he should be really busy during the Hari Raya, Deepavali. LOL. But generally, he's the type of person who can be really caring, he's willing to teach you anything in academics. And he will share every info and tips he got with you. Although he's really addicted to gaming, he's a really good friend to hang out with.

Zhi Hao.

He's a really rich kid with big big house. Lol. Everyone has a friend or girl friend or relative linked to him somehow. He's the kind of person who will be real quiet when he meets strangers, but will start to show his real personality when you really get to know him. Likes to eat A LOT. And he's really a professional gamer, he's good in any kind of computer games. The most interesting thing he did is he actually walked to ''the store'' from IMU to and fro at night alone in sem1. But generally, he's really caring, always drives here and there just to pick and buy presents for people. And he will be willing to drive all the way from Sungai Buloh to IMU just to provide transport for us.

Yu Chuan.

The first impression of him is that he became the leader of the group because he came late and no one else was willing to volunteer him/herself. He has a really good leadership though. Always know what to do and make the right decision. He's also the type of person who will get really good grades although he likes to game a lot. I guess his time management is really good, know when to study and when to play. Although his legs are quite hairly like zh, and he always keeps his beard which gave him the hamsap look, he always think of the others. As in he wont make any noise while gaming, knowing that people are studying or sleeping.

Well, they are the people who cheered me up throughout this year. We joked A LOT, and had a lot of fun together throughout this year. They are the kind of person whom I treat as true friends. And I hope that these friendships can last a lifetime. Cuz it's really hard to find friends like these nowadays. Although I always quarrel with some of them, but everything will be okay in the end.

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Besides that, I have to thank all the seniors for their guidance throughout this year.

Their notes helped me a lot in facing EOS.

And their encouragement also motivated me to not give up and keep on studying.

Also not to forget all the group 2 people in my batch.

Starting from Ter Wei, Jian Hui, Albert, Chloe, Carmen, Ser Yee, Melody, Joanne, Lydia, Chennee, Chung Yang, Joseph, Kavina, Syaza, Kishen.

It's really nice knowing all of you. I always enjoy hanging out with each and everyone of you.

And I'm really happy to know that most of us made it through the first year!!:)

And for the group 2 juniors. I feel happy to get to know all of you. And i know you guys bonded really well. I will try my best to help you guys in anything:)

Finally, to all the dental peeps.

It's my pleasure to get to know all of you.

We are always there for each other, motivates each other whenever any of us needs it.

I guess it's the advantage of being a dental student.

I think we bonded quite well throughout this year and I hope we can bond more with each other in future:)

109B.

2010-09-09T08:15:00.000-07:00

Sometimes, I like to spend some time alone and rejoice the past.

And sometimes, I miss the past so much that I wanna relive it.

But no matter how many ways i tried, the feeling is just not there anymore.

Then I realized, the people and environment are just not the same anymore.

Met up with my Ex-roommates last weekend.

They didnt really change much from my point of view.

Joee is still talking about females and how to get them.

Hojun is still that cheerful and optimistic.

Too bad Daniel wasn't there.

Meeting up with them made me think of the things we have done back then in 109B.

We cracked jokes together in the room at the end of the day.

We downloaded and watched movies together, especially the horror ones.

We always waited for each other to dine together at night.

Before we got internet, we always walked to the web to online until it closes.

We took kittens home and played with them.

Joee's tactic of getting females, changed from being normal to gay and then to monk.

Daniel's interest in females is always that unique.

The bet i made with Joee.

And how Daniel helped me proposed to someone, and succeed. LOL.

While taking the mini bus to Sunway that day with Hojun and Joee,

it reminded me of how we travel to Sunway the very first time.

We were scared that we would miss the stop so we stopped at a few stops before and walked there.

Although the room is freaking small, i would say it bonded us very well.

And the most important thing is, we never fight about anything.

That's the thing that amazed me.

Coming to the last semester, a new roommate moved in.

And we had to tolerate with his lifestyle.

It's not exactly a bad thing, it really did trained me to become more patient in everything.

Living with him is quite interesting and challenging.

It was my first and only time that i shouted so furiously at a friend when arguing with him.

And it was the first time someone stabbed me with a mechanical pencil into my face.

It was also the first time someone cried in front of me after fighting and arguing with me.

Anyhow i lost contact with him a long time ago.

I'm still curious how's he doing in life though.

And of course, I always got kidnapped to E-Tiara back then.

I have some really good memories back there as well.

The night where Lik invited everyone to his house for drinking nite,

and showed me how violent they can be in fighting.

Although it's like a day before my Biology paper 1, it's quite memorable.

We would go to Carrefour and buy stuff to cook dinner together.

The Spaghetti, The salad, The mushrooms.

It was somehow a bit uncomfortable being the light bulb, but I still enjoyed staying with them, cause they always took care of me like how brother and sister would.

Even after i graduated, he offered a room in the apartment for me without charging me.

I know living in the past is quite sad and seem emotional to people.

I'm sure few years later I would feel the same way about my current life.

It reminded me of the good friends I have in my life.

I have to admit that I changed a lot since then.

I can't say whether they have changed either,

but whoever they are becoming, I would really like to keep in touch with them.

Cause they are the people I would like to hang out with throughout my life.

Appreciation.

2010-08-07T12:10:00.000-07:00

This is the very first post I wrote 2 years ago in the previous blog which I've deleted a while ago.

Just a reminder to myself to keep in touch with them and appreciate them always.

I know that I'm not that close to some of them like I used to anymore.

But I will always be there for them whenever they need me.

Family and friends are the most important people in my life

My Family
This is my family.
Although i quarrel quite often with them,
BUT
They are the only people who i will sacrifice my life to protect them.
I didn't say it before, but i love my family.
I am so lucky and blessed to have a family like this.

Here's some pictures of my relatives.
I'm so proud of each and every one of them.

The family photo
My Grandpa and cousins My favorite cousin.

This too.

I know i sounds silly but i would hope to be a part of this family forever.

Friends That I Would Never Forget

Friendships are the gift to the man kind.
The relation which we get in this world are blood related.
But the only relationships which does not related to blood is friendship.
Trusted true friendships never makes others down.
it helps a lot to make friends to come up from the situation.
Friendships never expect anything in return for all its offering.
It saves life without looking into situation

Wai Lun
I know him since form 4. He has a manly kind of look, and has abnormally white and ''flawless'' skin.His academics was not so bright before form 4, and suddenly he's in the top ten. He's very generous, he's always there to teach me whatever things i don't understand. He used to come over to my house for ping pong, and group studies. I really cant survive my Spm without him. Although i seldom keep in touch with him now, but he will always be my best buddy.

Lik
He's another best buddy of mine. I know him since form 3. He has a very good look. A fashionable guy. A great latin and hip hop dancer. I think these are the reasons why he is so famous among girls. He has the coolest family which is very friendly and kind to his friends and i enjoy hanging out with them.
He's the kind of person who will always be there for his friend.
Oh ya, he smokes and he has an (very large) ear-pierce. And he'll be havin a tattoo soon.(Finally done? lol)

Hojun
Another best buddy of mine. I know him since form 2. He's also my current roommate. I like to see him smiles as his smile is contagious. I always find him for consultation whenever i need to make a choice as he has a very matured mind.
He's a very good planner too. He plans for most of the friend's gathering.
And he's a very good counselor too.
I'm so glad that i have a friend like him.

Joee
I've known him for quite a long time but i never really get to know him until this year. He's my roommate and another best friend of mine. One of the things i would like to learn from him is he don't care what people think of him. He lives in his own world. He tells many legendary jokes. I enjoy joking with him and my housemates although my jokes are lame. He will always be on my friends list.
There are actually quite a lot of people who care for him in this world. Hope that he won't be cacat anymore.
P/S:he's a former womanizer.

Siang Yuin
He's an ''oldest'' friend of mine. I've known him since standard 3. He the kind of person who can play games on the day before the final exam and scores good grades. Always a top 3 student. And he's another person who don't really care what others think about him. He respects his parents so much until he obeys each and every things his parents say.
As you can see, he's a mother-lover. I've tried my best not to let him get anywhere near to my mum.

KhimYao
Well, I've known him for over two years now. He's a tall guy with a very handsome face. He loves to take pictures and his camera skills are so good. After he graduated last year, he became more and more ''yeng'' until he became a model and appears in the UTAR website.
I enjoy hanging out with him during the holidays.

WaiKhan
I've known him for quite a long period of time. If i'm not mistaken, we were classmates from form 1 until form 5. He's a cute type of person. And his attitude changes a lot from form 1till form5. I'm glad he had changed until who he is today. He's the best student in secondary school.Got JPA scholarhip to America! God knows how much i envy him.
Anyway, he's a best buddy of mine. Hope that he will do fine in his life.

YikKuan
I've known her for over 3 years now. She's the one and only female best friend i would tell her everything about my life. She's a very good listener, i will call her whenever i feel very depressed. I will feel so much better after chatting with her whenever i encounter a problem.
Well, she's becoming prettier everytime i see her. And she has many admirers too.
I'm very blessed to have a best friend like her. Hope that we will never lose contact.

Other friends i enjoy and miss hanging out with.

5S1, My ex-classmates. Although i was always the bullied one, still i miss being in the class with you guys. You guys will forever be in my mind.

The ex-friday night-shift librarians. I always went for library duty on friday night. It was quite annoying at first as friday night was supposed to be the night for the students to relax. However, made lots of friends there and enjoyed doing my shifts with them. Seldom keep in touch with most of them now. But it was part of my secondary school life.

Friends from CaiHongDeShiJie and DingHuiJucamps. I enjoyed planning and organizing camps with you guys. I feel that i've grown up a lot after the camps. Hope that we can do it again in the future. And do keep in touch with me always.^^

True-hearted Friends.I like hanging out with you guys. The events like BBQ, Visit to the waterfall, lostworld and so on make me feel that i can still have fun even though i'm trying to survive my college life. You guys are the best. I will never forget you guys.

As what i said above, you guys are forever on my best buddies list.

Havin gathering once in a while with you guys make me feel that i still have friends in this world. Although i don't know some of the friends here well enough. I still hope that i can keep in touch with you guys.

Well, post this picture because this is the first time i join a charity event and i enjoyed it. I'm glad to know each and every one of the friends i met that day. Although i only keep in touch with two of the friends in the picture above nowadays.

Last but not least, my current classmates.PM3. To be honest, i was a loner the first time i met you guys. I was homesick so terribly that time. And i'm not used to the new college lifestyle in the period.
However, you guys brighten up my days in college everyday and i'm used to going class with you guys nowadays.
Hope that we can be good friends and good luck in your AS Exam(which is now.Lol)

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2 years had passed, people I hang out with obviously changed.
It's my pleasure to have them in my life.
Thank you for making my current-hectic-and-stressful life colourful, especially DNM.
And hopefully our friendships can last forever.

I wont say that I have a lot of friends.
But I'll definitely say that I have a few trusted true ones.

Simple vs Real.

2010-07-28T08:20:00.000-07:00

Anyone can stand by you when you are right, but a Friend will stand by you even when you are wrong...
A simple friend identifies himself when he calls. A real friend doesn't have to.
A simple friend opens a conversation with a full news bulletin on his life.
A real friend says, "What's new with you?"

A simple friend thinks the problems you whine about are recent.
A real friend says, "You've been whining about the same thing for 19 years. Get off your duff and do something about it."
A simple friend has never seen you cry. A real friend has shoulders soggy from your tears.
A simple friend doesn't know your parent's first names. A real friend has their phone numbers in his address book.
A simple friend hates it when you call after he has gone to bed. A real friend asks you why you took so long to call.
A simple friend seeks to talk with you about your problems. A real friend seeks to help you with your problems.
A simple friend, when visiting, acts like a guest. A real friend opens your refrigerator and helps himself.
A simple friend thinks the friendship is over when you have an argument.
A real friend knows that it's not a friendship until after you've had a fight.
A simple friend expects you to always be there for them. A real friend expects to always be there for you!
A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out.

A real friend is someone who knows there's something wrong even when you have the biggest smile on your face.
The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.

The Change.

2010-07-16T04:42:00.000-07:00

As we grow up, we bid goodbye to a lot of things.
We don't play the games we used to play anymore.
We don't depend on our parents that much anymore.
We just stop doing a lot of stuff.

As we grow up, the people we mix and encounter everyday changes as well.
We may like or hate the new people we meet,
but all we can do is to adapt to the changes we encounter everyday.
Everything can change completely in a moment.
So be prepared for it.

Suddenly i thought of some ''best'' friends of mine back in primary one or two.
We used to do lots of stuff together.
Played lots of games in class,
Hang out in each others' houses after school,
Got into trouble together and got canned.
Still remember we pretended to be emotionally disturbed after got canned until the teachers sent us for counseling.
We used to make promises about best friends for life or whatever shit.
And when we got into Primary three, we got separated into different class.
One of them cried that day and left me a note saying that we must sit together during recess.
Well, we did sit together for the first three months.
Then when my class teacher started to get serious on the PTS exam, i didn't get to go to the canteen for recess.
So i didn't get to mix with them that much anymore.
It's kinda sad but the interesting part is we write letters from class to class.
Luckily both of them were in the same class so it wasn't that complicated to communicate with both of them.
Our parents used to chat for hours while we were playing.
Well, I don't really remember what happened after that.
One of them got transferred to the other school.
And the other got to know some so-called bad kids in school.
So I just didn't hang out with them that much after that.
Well, one of them reconnected with me two years ago.
But I didn't know what to chat with him anymore.
And I was too busy doing something else.

When people go to a whole new environment, they will definitely change to adapt to it.
And when people change, their interest changes as well.
And when the interest between two people doesn't match anymore,
they just can't connect to each other.
Everyone has their own perspective of life.
It will change as well cause we are being influenced by people around us daily.

You can't ask people not to change.
They have the right to change,
but they also have the right to remain the same.
Although people may change, the memory will always remain.
The good ones and the bad ones.

All I want to say is,
Good friends come and go.
But true friends will always stay and be there for you.
It's quite simple to differentiate those.
True friends will sacrifice anything for each other.
Not financially, but they will always sacrifice their time for each other no matter what.
True friends don't buy expensive stuff for each other,
they will do all sorts of little things to show that the care for each other.

As you can see, I've deleted all the previous posts and changed my blog entirely.
Figured some memory don't need to be written in words to be remembered.
And it's my way to bid goodbye to my past:)